And make no mistake, he was involved. That much is fact. We can sit and argue whether he actually killed anyone or helped kill anyone or at what level he was involved, but he sure as shit was involved. So let's establish that first and foremost. Blood in his limo. A disappearing white suit that he wore that night. How the fuck do you lose a suit? I lose shit all the time, ask my wife. I've spent 10 minutes looking for a cell phone that I was holding in my hand, but I've never once lost an entire suit. That right there is all I need to know to know Lewis must have had some role. And it doesn't matter to me what role it was, because to me there's no difference if he actually stabbed those guys himself or if he saw it and didn't say shit about it.
But all that's been hashed through enough. This rant isn't about proving he's guilty or what he's guilty of. It's not even about how much I hate the guy, because like I said I thought I did but I don't. I don't like him, but it's not him I'm mad at either.
He has gone on to live out a life that few of us could even begin to dream about. He's made millions off of everyone who goes to his games, buys his jerseys and the products he endorses. He's done all that when his ass should have been in jail and long forgotten. He's done all that while two people are dead, two families devastated while their loved ones' murders have gone unpunished. That's what pisses me off.
So when you fawn all over this guy, you spit in the face of those families. When you talk about what a hero he is, you piss on those people's graves.
It's one thing to forgive someone. Even a murderer. He didn't kill me or anyone I knew, so in a way it would be arrogant of me to even say I forgive him, because he doesn't owe me shit as far as an apology or remorse or restitution. But what the hell is forgiveness, anyway?
Forgiveness is a weird thing. Most religions preach it. Some even require it. And if you look up the definition of forgiveness it means "to grant free pardon and to give up all claim on account of an offense or debt". But what the hell exactly does that mean? Act like it never happened? Hell no. Never hold the offense against the person? If that's the case then some offenses are not totally forgivable. Maybe there comes a time when you can say ok, you've paid enough of a price. But that doesn't mean it's forgotten. Doesn't mean I can't still hold it against you and say you are not a hero. You sure as shit aren't a role model. You damn sure don't deserve the fame and fortune and adoration of millions. So if I'm in any position to forgive Ray Lewis, then I don't forgive him, and I wont. But I don't hate him either, at least not anymore.
I hope people will stop and think about all this shit for a minute before they start congratulating him on such a great career today. Fuck that, it's a career he never should have had. There should be no tribute, no grand retrospective on Ray Lewis today. Don't make him a hero. He's not a hero, he's not someone to look up to, I don't give a shit what he's done in the years since. Forgiveness doesn't mean justifying the act, and by making Ray Lewis out to be a hero that's exactly what you do. Go find a real hero, they are all around you. Go find a fireman or policeman (or woman, I just think that fireperson or policeperson sounds stupid as hell). But anyway find one of them, who go to work every single day knowing they might not come home that night, because they might have to give their life to save another. Find better heroes in sports, you know, maybe somebody who has done all the wonderful things Ray Lewis has for people and kids and hasn't been involved in a double-homicide.
OK, I'm done, now go watch the Super Bowl. Oh and do me one favor...either watch the damn game or leave the people alone who want to watch the game. Don't shush me so you can hear some stupid ass commercial and then be all loud as fuck talking about the stupid ass commercial while I'm trying to watch the game. That totally pisses me off. But if you do, I'll forgive you...
Very well said man....and I agree 100%
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